I love working on poems tied to a single, linking concept. One of those was my Kama Sutra series where each poem was the Kama Sutra of a person, a place, or a thing (here’s some of my favorites). Lately, my poem cycles have involved documenting things leading up to a relationship, the aftermath of a relationship, the disintegration of a relationship (with the exception of the Porn for the Blind series) but never the inner workings of how a relationship failed.
As of tomorrow, it will be five weeks since I broke up with my most recent girlfriend. The cycle I’m writing now helped me realize what I was willing to tolerate in said relationship, what I shouldn’t be willing to tolerate. After two more (it’s based on the Doomsday Clock), I’m done with that series.
I retreat back to fiction when I’m happy. I have nothing to document in that state, having the emotional clarity to create something new. All this introspection causes the poems to come out.
I wish sometimes that the emotional clarity in the poems would come out in the non-poetry moments that matter, the arguments, the serious discussions. I also wish that I wasn’t such a chameleon in a relationship, adaptable to the point where it can be harmful to my own ego and self-worth.
As of Monday, I’ll be in Memphis on business for 13 days, 12 nights. It will be isolating. Hopefully the acute void will help with some other writing projects that I’m working on.
I’m guilty of starting concepts I never finish with. One was this concept (I lost the anger and the emotional velocity. You can purchase some of the best of parts of this concept here) and the other was a collection of flash fiction pieces where each story ends with a Mexican standoff. This piece, published by The Holler Box, is from that failed idea. Enjoy. Bonus points if you know where the title came from.
I normally don’t drink before I read. However, I did at the latest Mr. Pierre’s Hump Day show because I was doing work I’ve done before and I had a hard day. I performed this with a band backing me and it was a blast.